Anyway, remember that drinking game from highschool/college - Truth or Dare? Where you had to choose a "truth" or a "dare"and then deal with the consequences of your choice or take a drink (or both)? You learned so much about people not only based upon their responses to their "truths", but also if they typically took "dares" or took "truths".
Me, I took truths. I much prefer dealing in the known, and dealing with the consequences of the whole world knowing my own choices and actions than giving the reins over and letting someone else determine what I should do. I'll take my humiliation at my own hands thankyouverymuch.
What does that all have to do with anything? Well, I guess on a very simple level, at that point in my life I was much more comfortable with the truth of my past being known that having to trust my future to anyone.
Thought I was over that by the age of 35.
Almost was too.
